things are crazy... not crazy good, not crazy bad, just... crazy.

Well, Liam, here is my big long post.... having something to do with Windsor.

The reason why I didn't really post about it is because when I got the letter I had lost the surprise... i'm not saying that i'm amazing and knew i was going to get in.... here... i best explain:

So I arrive at the good old University of Windsor for my audition: Good University, UGLY city... its gross... but anyways... And the first thing I notice is how welcoming they are... they really want to get to know you that day. And I like that... I don't think I would survive at Ryerson just because I'd rather be somewhere where I feel wanted. Anyways, at the audition there were about 15 girls... and all but like 3 of them were not very good at all... and there was only 5 guys.... which put me at ease.... but like 4 of the 5 guys were really good... which took that ease away from me. We started with the physical warm up.... i did pretty good with that, but it was hard... and i felt sore after... i'm going to have to start training... or something....

then they demonstrated the movement piece for us and we had ten minutes to learn this very abstract little dance i guess.. i struggled with it at first, but my attention to detail and my mad dancing skills (yea right) put me at the top of guys... I would say so at least, anyways.... which is weird, because I am really not that good with moving my body... at all.

then we did our monologues, holy mother of mom was i nervous!! i'm always nervous... i've managed to learn to contain it for being on stage... but for doing monologues and auditions its horrible... i shake sweat and quiver sooo much. anyways, other than that I did pretty good. The girls were all pretty bad except for those 3, and the guys were all ok except for 2 others who were really good.... except, I felt like was one of the only people with a real understanding of Shakespeare, so I have Susan to thank for that....

Then we did the cold reading of the Sonnets... I did ok... nothing special really....

Then we did improv and i absolutely sucked.. ok no, but i thought i would do so well because... well... its improv!! but we could only speak in numbers... and we were only up for like 5 seconds... soooo no big.

Then we all sat in a circle and they went on about how they try to be welcoming and supportive, and that only 26 people get in each year... and i'm sitting there like: "this sucks." and they go on about how they're sending out the letters that week and you'll either get acceptance, waiting list, or nothing... and if you don't get in to come talk to him (lionel) in october and he'll tell you how to improve for next time. "aww how nice" i thought to myself... Then he was like ok theres sandwiches upstairs so lets stack these chairs and then have some lunch!! and i was like wow... they're so nice! Sandwiches! My impression of Windsor definately boosted that day... they're nice and welcoming... its almost as if they actually want you to come to their school... hmmm... imagine that!!

Anyways I'm stacking some chairs and Lionel walks over to me and starts: "I just wanted to let you know..." and i'm thinking, great! i didn't get in and he's going to tell me how to improve for next time.. Another year of HELL! "....that we're going to take you." I was like... What.? And I honestly asked if he was kidding. "No I'm not kidding!" and then I asked if it was a test. "No its not a test" (Yes I'm a dork.) And I still didn't believe him... they still had two auditions to do in Halifax and Vancouver, and why wouldn't he just make me wait a week for the letter?... I gushed on about how wonderful and welcoming the school was compared to other audition processes i had experienced and blah blah blah. and then i had a sandwich. and went home. still not believing it. i thought they would find someone who would replace me in vancouver or something... and then a week later i got the letter and the suprise wasn't there... so it wasn't as fun... but hey, i am so glad i got in... So maybe I can't get into Ryerson, but I really think Windsor is better for me. I'm not used to acting in a competitive sense... I'd rather be more supportive. Yes I'm a sap.

So I'm going to Windsor! Well, I should wait until hearing from Ryerson for sure... but the winds are set for Windsor... that could all change if I get acceptance at Ryerson but I doubt that will happen anyways.

In other news... I. AM. SO. SICK.

I just want to die for two weeks... and then wake up refreshed... *sigh*


Enjoy life, folks.
eric