'Wow'

In keeping with the theme of my first post, I do what I'm told... when I want to, here's the latest update in blog form as per requested by one Nora Smith.

Wow.

That pretty much sums up my life lately. Everything has happened so fast that I've hardly had time to react, and thus all I can say is 'Wow.' No exclamation mark or extreme enthusiasm or anything... just 'Wow.'

The biggest 'Wow' in my life recently? My Ryerson audition... as in 'Wow what happened?' I was ridiculously nervous, you would've thought I've never performed in front of people before in my life. I bet the auditioners thought I was just some kid who thought 'Heyyyy sure! I'll try acting!! It's not like its hard or anything, anyone can do it!' In my defense though, I was a little a lot out of my league. There were alot of good actors there, alot more guys then I thought there would be.... Long story short, No callback for me. Won't find out if I'm in until May. I haven't really have that much experience with focusing on just a monologue (I officially hate monologues), let alone auditioning, but I was just so sure that the nervousness would pass as it does when I usually act. I'm always nervous like crazy backstage, but then once I step onstage I'm fine... but with my audition I was nervous before, during, and after... I couldn't spit out my words... I was sweating like crazy... it was disgusting, and I didn't even realize it until I looked at my armpits... haha.... ewwww.

That being said, I don't want you to think that I'm unconfident and think I did horrible, but I am confident that it wasn't the best I could do. And I'm surprisingly ok with that. If I don't get into Ryerson, hey, so what... I know what its like now and I'll be prepared for it next year. It's better than me thinking I did AMAZING and then not getting in... at least I know that I'm capable of doing better and therefore I actually might have a chance at getting it next time. Life, especially the one I'm planning, is going to be filled with disappointments and bad auditions... this is just one of the very first of them, I need to get used to it.

Hopefully, things will go well with my Windsor audition--I'd definately rather go to Ryerson, but Windsor's good too--and maybe I can get in there if not at Ryerson. Then I can try to transfer the next year... if thats possible. Worst come to worst, I won't get in at either university and I'll have to stick around here for a year... hey, I can save up some cash, keep Nora and Andrew company in Playmakers... it won't be that bad... right? Ok yes it will, because I will probably subconsciously just kill myself if I have to stay in this house for another year... I've got 17 years worth of pet peeves on my family... we need some time apart. Also, everybody will be gone to university... except me... and thats not fun... or cool.

In other news, and to keep this post from becoming a 'pity-eric-party' I had a craaaaazy dream the other night... My drama class wanted to do Hamlet for our next project, but I voted against it. No, Nora and Ellen, thats not Blasphemy... I had two reasons: 1) My drama class would've BUTCHERED it... you have no idea, ok? 2) It would've been a bit of Hamlet overload... Hamlet in Playmakers, English, annnnd Drama? Mmmmmm...no.

I on the other hand wanted to do another Shakespeare play... one that doesn't exist, I made it up in my dream... I can't remember the name of it... it was long and very Shakespearey... but I do remember it eventually incorporated Playmakers people into the cast! And we practised in my Attic! And the lead male role was naked the entire play... which was weird. Thankfully, I did not receive that part.... Since Andrew has left the blogging world I guess its semi-safe to reveal that he was the lead... and he insisted on being naked all the time to 'get into character'... it was very.... weird.... and a little bit disturbing... and unneccessary.... and.... yeah..... ...... ... ..

Anyways, needless to say by the end of the dream the play had transformed into a Cirque de Soleil performance, just as the Bard would've intended it!

Crazy Dream.

To conclude: Tonight's Grey's Anatomy...
Good episode. I felt so bad for the lightning tree stalker girl..... I wanted her to live... and she died thinking that guy was in love with him! Meredith LIED to her! Yeah... ok, I get a bit too attatched to the side-plots.... But oh! You know the girl that is currently pursuing George? Dr. Torres? I saw her on Broadway when I went to New York! She's an amazing singer... Anyways, so yeah I'm rooting for her to push her way into the cast.... And it looks like she is!

Wow, so that was a long post...